As I’ve stated, I write the day before and set them to post early in the morning. So as I write, I’m hyper aware that right now I am missing the first rehearsal for for the show in which I was cast before I got cancer, and which I subsequently had to drop out of.

Getting that gig marked a really important milestone for me, it was a full year of solid work in the theater. The show at the Children’s Theater started rehearsal last October and ran through the end of January. Two weeks later I started rehearsal for another show and then the day after that show closed I started into the summer shows… In short, I’d had a great last year and was already set to start the 2010-2011 Season off on a great foot!

It’s probably the one thing that we kept coming back to when we first got the news (a month ago today): “Everything was going so well.” We were both working jobs that we loved, Christine was about to start the her MBA Program, and we had started making some real plans for the future. And it was a future that we could both see taking shape. Again, everything was going so well.

I do believe that everything happens for a reason, and I know that when we emerge from this period of our lives we’ll see how we have changed for the better. But that doesn’t make the changes easier to stomach in the short term (not that  I would expect it to). But at the same time, I just finally felt like I was on the right path for once and that it was working out. It’s just frustrating.

I guess I just wish that I was at work right now. But then again, I would probably just be sitting in rehearsal wondering if I was going to have tomorrow off. =)