For the first time since crushing it last week, my toe is feeling better and I’m beginning to walk normally again.

Interestingly, since I’ve stayed off my feet for pretty much the entire week I’ve been feeling really good as well. Normally I think I would be trying to do things and would up on my feet working and cleaning around the house etc. This would typically exhaust me and make me feel like crap, so I guess there is something to taking it easy and just sitting on the couch for a few days until I feel better.

Of course I’ve accomplished nothing all week, so I guess its a trade off. Push myself and actually be useful but feel the effects of the fatigue and achyness, OR sit on the couch for several days and feel physically better.

The problem is that I just can’t sit still. Even when my “job” is just to “get better” I still find that I feel guilty sitting at home and taking it easy while Christine is out at work.

It’s something that I’ve actually struggled with ever since I left my old day job last spring. When I’m in a show I work nights, but during the day I always found that I couldn’t really bring myself to just relax and read, or watch TV, or play video games. I did whatever I could to keep myself busy with things I felt made me useful: cleaning, running errands, and working on various projects. So it’s something that has always been issue for me, but has definitely been heightened for me since getting sick.